Today I am discouraged.
Today I am discouraged. I’m know I shouldn’t be, that I should be excited and happy with the way things are going in my life, because really things are heading in the right direction. BUT…
I am a stubborn, impatient, and determined… an interesting combination in a person and sure to drive some people who know me bonkers. But I am also very friendly, affectionate, loving, loyal, and honest. I put my all into what I do. Most people who know me like me.
Last night I went to the local club’s orientation. This was good. After I went out with some friends then went back to the club for an event they were having. I realized while there, I have very high expectations in what I am looking for in a play partner. I won’t play with just anyone. I am very picky. This is good except for the fact that I am impatient, stubborn, and determined. LOL. I feel it truly could take years for me to find someone who sparks an interest in me strong enough to play with within the local scene. AND I WANT TO PLAY NOW. LOL
Sigh. Oh well, I should be happy that I realize what I want and I’m perusing it. Eventually I will find a man that rocks my world enough to kneel before. Until then I guess I will have to rely on mechanics. Cry. 🙁