A year of learning… a year of growth… a new year ahead.
This past year has been incredibly difficult for me. I have learned a lot about myself, my boundaries, and what I need and want in my life. I grew a lot this past year and mainly in the last half of the year. I almost feel as though I lost myself in both GOOD and BAD ways.
BAD, That I lost sight of what I started on this journey for. To be me, My true me. I find myself at times simply feeling completely adrift from what I set out to accomplish, from who I am at my core, and who I strive to be. I want to re-anchor myself, refocus on the journey of life and find that content passionate energy that is such a part of me again. I lost a big chunk of it part of the way through the year and I really want it back. It is coming back slowly… but I am impatient. LOL. What is new… Being patient is somthing that I have always struggled with.
GOOD, I found out new things about myself and I continue to do soon an almost weekly basis. I have gone through this kind of rediscovery before… it is positive and focused , but I had not expected the upheaval that comes with this kind of rediscovery to happen so soon again after my divorce. Sigh.
Looking back on my goals for this past year and I don’t think I met very many of them. In so many ways this past year was a mess, though there were exceptional great things too. This next year though I plan on seeing more than one of my goals through. Here are some highlights of this past year… focusing mainly on the greats.
My First book WHAT SHE CRAVES was published from Kensington. (There are no words to describe this success… I cried when I saw my book on the shelves and it is still selling very well.)
Fell in Love hard… Learned I could not deal with the situation my love offered me, frown… Fell in love again… oh the highs and the lows… oh the circles… wink. I am learning life, on all levels, is full of CIRCLES!
Two, I visited Europe for the very first time… well actually I guess it is Scandinavia. LoL but I used that Passport of mine for the very first time. That trip was filled with lots of firsts and has fueled some of my 08 goals.( more on those next week.)
Started to learn a foreign language… “Hej Du.”
Sold to Harlequin. It was a Short Brief, but man… HARLEQUIN!!! Huge Grin.
Explored my Passions, Loves, and Fears. Amazing how intense it is to explore your fears.
I learned the further I try to bend myself against my nature or push my boundaries, the harder I try, but without full support in either case I will shatter… and shatter hard.
I learned I have a slight wheat intolerance. No more white bread for me, no more pasta… why is it when you can’t have something, you want it soooo much more?
I bought my very own place… well mine and my kids. Grin.
There is so much that happened this past year… but those are the big biggies. 2008 goals will be up next week! I was going to post them with this post but it got sooooooo long!
Hugs and Kisses and Happy Happy New YEAR!